nanonano

Life. Losing people. Finding them. Hidup tak pernah statis. Jika pernah terdengar bahwa hidup itu datar, itu hanya karena kebosanan sedang menyelimuti hidup itu sendiri. Manusia kehilangan, manusia mendapatkan. Aku berpisah dengan keluarga SMAku, aku bertemu dengan teman-teman baru –dan juga teman lama yang belum pernah kutemui— di sini, in this big city. And lemme choose a word to describe how it feels...nanonano. Di satu sisi, sungguh sedih karena merindukan mereka, di sisi lain, sangat bahagia bertemu dengan mereka. Thats life.

I’ve been worrying many things. Can I adapt to this new environment? Will they like me? Surabaya. Ya Surabaya. It aint same with Banyuwangi. And what Im worrying the most is If Im influenced by them. I hold tight myself and what I have inside. I’ll still be me no matter what. Its fine to have so many friends with different personalities, it is so interesting indeed. But I have to keep myself. I have to keep my personality, dont I? :)

Here the problem is coming. It aint from the new ones. So painful. Am I that arrogant? Is it wrong for me to have so many new friends? Should I be like you to be accepted by you? I cant stop myself to think about those questions. But problems are problems. Life is not life without them.

Oh ya. I’ve been 18 :D thanks God for this eighteen-years-life that You gave. Thanks for all of prayers and wishes. It might be the most ordinary birthday, but Im still grateful. Thank you :)

So what Im preparing now is my college life. Aku sedang meyakinkan diriku bahwa kuliah bukan untuk main-main. I have targets to reach, and I have to reach them. Let love find itself. Bismillaahirrahmaanirrahiim :)

I’ve promised to myself to write my ups and downs till I came to this level. Its kinda hard actually to recall those useful yet painful experiences. But I have to pay my promise right?