nobody's shout

It hadn't been a month, but losing her still hurts. Im gonna miss our silly and unimportant conversations, your laughter, our short yet unforgettable togetherness. Fight for your dream there, Del. See you at the top :') dear you, Alia Rizki Fadhillah

when you know that you've been changing a lot and you suddenly miss the old you, but she can't come back when you try to force yourself doing something for other people sake when you know that what you're doing is kinda hard but you still want to do it when you realize that your advice to a friend is happening to you know, but you can do nothing when everything feels so wrong.... I just wanna go to nowhere, where no one can find me.

I just don't easily fall for someone.... “but when you do, that someone is too far to reach”. Yeah, that’s the fact. And this fact happens again. Well, Im not falling for him. Im just adoring. Thats what I can say. I find myself challenged to secretly adore a person who cant easily be reached. Its not because he isn’t single anymore, but its because he’s struggling and he wants to focus. Its challenging you know? But I hope I can reach him someday, indeed.  I wont do anything for him now. I dont need to, and he doesnt deserve yet. What I need to focus at now is studying. So you, please Remind Me If I forget   :)

Jengah kulihat rangkaian kata, rentetan peristiwa dalam ilusi Memperindah asa, mematikan hati Aku benci sunyi Aku tak ingin mati Jika mati adalah sunyi, maka aku akan jadi sang dewi Mencari embun tuk hidupkan nadi Sunyi adalah hitam Sepi adalah pekat Maka kulihat sebaris semut memburu madu Apa perlu kutawarkan madu itu agar mereka sepi? Tapi aku bosan sepi Aku ingin mereka teriak Pecahkan rongga hati yang lama membeku Sunyi, sepi, adalah seni Hanya ia dan pemiliknya kan mengerti

Life. Losing people. Finding them. Hidup tak pernah statis. Jika pernah terdengar bahwa hidup itu datar, itu hanya karena kebosanan sedang menyelimuti hidup itu sendiri. Manusia kehilangan, manusia mendapatkan. Aku berpisah dengan keluarga SMAku, aku bertemu dengan teman-teman baru –dan juga teman lama yang belum pernah kutemui— di sini, in this big city. And lemme choose a word to describe how it feels...nanonano. Di satu sisi, sungguh sedih karena merindukan mereka, di sisi lain, sangat bahagia bertemu dengan mereka. Thats life. I’ve been worrying many things. Can I adapt to this new environment? Will they like me? Surabaya. Ya Surabaya. It aint same with Banyuwangi. And what Im worrying the most is If Im influenced by them . I hold tight myself and what I have inside. I’ll still be me no matter what. Its fine to have so many friends with different personalities, it is so interesting indeed. But I have to keep myself. I have to keep my personality, dont I? :) Here the problem i