nobody's shout

(with some editing) Am I better off dead? Am I better off a quitter? They say I'm better off now Than I ever was with him As they take me to my local down the street I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet They say a few drinks will help me to forget him But after one too many I know that I'll never Only they can’t see where this is gonna end They all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense And my mates are all there trying to calm me down 'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town I'm swearing if I go there now I can change his mind, turn it all around And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words And he'll listen this time even though they’re slurred So I, dialed his number and confessed to him I'm still in love but all I heard Was nothing (nothing, nothing, nothing) So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences I know if we're face to face then she'll come to his senses Every drunk step I take

tonight, I'm kinda doubting what my passion is. it feels like I lost myself, I'm walking with no direction, I have no goal. what's so wrong with my life?

it's okay to fight with other before the day. some cheeks might be wet because of tears. but remember, this struggle wont result anything if we lose belief to our team. never take all the blame by yourself, yet never give all the blame to your friend. work together, believe each other, we are a team, we are a family. those fights and tears will be repaid tomorrow guys. godspeed on our big event! dear 14th batch of Materials and Metallurgical Enginering students :)

..... bukan untuknya                         bukan untuk siapa                 tapi untukku                                   karena aku ingin kamu Itu Saja. (Rangga's - aadc)

Kinda regretting to go back to this lovely place too early. Really have nothing fun to do. Wake up, with no food and television, and then...do nothing hmmm. Since I have done kost-walking (staying for awhile in my friends' kost, in Malang), I'm really encouraged to do some experiments with everything in my room. So I began this experiment on my first day here. I persuaded my kost-mate to accompany me going to Sakinah (ITS student's favorite minimarket) by foot. I just didn't know why I really wanted to go there by foot haha. Bunch of thanks for Indah  anyway for accompanying me :)) Well, this first experiment was supported by 3 useless boxes in my room. I was just gettin' bored seeing them naked *ups :p them, naked by using some kertas kado (wrapping paper) I bought from Sakinah, scissor, cellophane tape, and glue, I beautified them :D Before - After :)) And now I have a new favorite corner in my room :3 New Favorite Corner~ My boredom produce

“...for we are one big family, there will always be time for sharing and caring for each other, even when we are far apart...” (Spread Our Wings, Putera Sampoerna Foundation Family's Anthem) Haven’t met them—my beloved big family— for about 6 months really drove me crazy *agak-lebay-memang*. Yes I missed them so much, but I won't push you to read my pathetic grievance during that missing-them-period. I’m gonna bring you to that unforgettable moment when we were laughing, hugging, kissing , and making scandals (again), together, in SatU (Sampoerna Academy to University). Since we are really professional committee *sorry for being conceited, but we really are :p*, we could prepare everything for SatU without meeting each other. Guess how we coordinate? Via facebook for sure, big thanks to Mark Zuckerberg anyway :D  The night before the event, we prepared the decoration. We stayed awake till 1 a.m. (actually we worked for about two hours only, but we need to hold a s

There's something I hate the most from boys, mostly. Im not gonna tell you what is that thing exactly, but Im just gonna implicitly tell you from this dialogue, taken from Heart String: Lee Shin (boy) : Gyu Won.. Gyu Won (girl) : mmm? Lee Shin : About you liking me, dont give up. Gyu Won : What? Lee Shin : About you liking me, Im telling you not to give up. Gyu Won : What do you mean? You.. Do you like me? Lee Shin : (doesn't say any single word) Gyu Won : Are you saying that even though you don't like me, you want me to continue liking you?! What? Don't kid yourself! Who do you think you are?! You think all the women in the world are like that? Narcissism also has limit. Yeah, that's it. I bet everyone is happy if being loved by many people. But please, can you just stop playing around with their feelings? Be a gentleman, guys. Well, if you wanna play it like a game, so come on lets play -Paramore . I've been playing. I've been

As a freshwoman, I still cant do all the things I want. I have to be patient to live my first-year-college-life and wait till I (oh no, we) are accepted *sigh. but wait, there's a miracle coming up :)) Materials and Metallurgical Engineering Freshmen have held a spectacular event in this 2013. This event was named #KABAR (Kajian Akbar). it's actually a KPP of Pearlite (I wont explain more about it, cause it'll take sooo looong time) :p the poster So this #KABAR had a theme "Happy New Year; So What? -_-" which was brought by a very great Ustadz, his name is Ustadz CHR. Bangun Samudra. I really like the way he delivered his speech, it could take my boredom away anyway :D "As Moslem, we must hold tight our belief. Our New Year is on Muharram 1st not on January 1st . In celebrating Hijriyah New Year, we should do positive things such as reading Al-Quran, joining in Kajian Islam, and doing self-evaluation. Doing negative things to celebrate New Year isn

If it's called LOVE , it ain't that strong. but if I say it's not, it means I'm telling lie Lately, I have been enjoying teasing myself. I just can't describe what my heart is telling me. It certainly didn't same with what I've felt before. yeah, it isn't that strong. But if he's just nobody, why can he bring so many influences for me? why can he make my mood goes up and down just like roller coaster? or is it just because I'm on my way to let him go? Yeah as you know that the hardest part is letting go.